Back in November my best friend sent me a very smooth heart-shaped rock with the word "strength" roughly engraved on it. It's usual resting place is on the windowsill by the kitchen sink, but now and then I find that the girls have relocated it. Just recently I found it next to Sephine's bed, where it has stayed for the last 5 days.
Last weekend we were at our dear friend's Matt and Kelly's wedding. One of the songs we sang was appropriately titled "Strength for the Journey" in which family and friends were encouraged to sing the chorus "I will be, I will be, I will be Strength for the Journey". Looking around at their loved ones, singing these words, made for an emotional experience.
There is nothing more comforting in this life with one another, knowing that though it has crazy amounts of ups and downs, God is good and we may find strength in knowing we have loved ones surrounding us, praying for us, loving us, giving us strength. And sometimes where it comes from will totally surprise us...especially when we find ourselves gaining strength while wrapped in the arms of a 4-year old with cancer.
Sephine's chemotherapy is almost done. She has been amazingly strong these past few months. Playing hard and loving life. I'm not quite sure if she grasps what "one more round of chemotherapy" means and that is okay. But she does know a big party is coming, and that is even better!
A few people have mentioned it must be nice to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is. But I have realized that with Sephine there always has been light, maybe never even a tunnel. Of course this has been a chapter in her life we never expected, but when do we ever "expect" these things? Everyday is full of all kinds of unexpecteds, which is why having "strength for the journey" is immensely important.
We are aware that the journey with this disease is far from over, but having this strength and light makes us realize that even now everything is already alright.